25.

It’s October 15th and I am taking a one-day break in the Shattering Stigmas event today to write down something a bit more personal because… well, I guess I deserve to be a tiny bit selfish today, because if not today, when.

I’m turning 25 years old today.

By the way, yes hello this is Marie again, back on her own blog, I hope you haven’t forgotten me by now?! Feel free to please check out the Shattering Stigmas blog posts too, while you’re here, because the event is important and I have amazing posts lined up until October 20th!

It feels really strange to write this down, I’m not sure why. 25 is a strange age. When people around me are already married and with kids, other moving in with their special someone, at their dream job, just rocking life and traveling the world all the time, I’m just… well, just here, I guess. Then again, what I’m writing down here is just what social media is telling me, and most likely, most people at 25 are feeling the exact same way that I am right now, just… here, I guess and trying to get through adulting day by day.

Since it’s my birthday, I thought I would try and celebrate with something different this year. Last year, I managed to reunite life’s happenings in my 23rd years and talk about that and I just really liked it, I guess, I’m taking that inspiration again. So…. I can feel that it’s going to be a struggle, finding
25 things that happened this year, but…. let’s do this.

  • I visited Heidelberg (Germany) for the first time and it was a lovely, adorable city.
  • I celebrated 3 years of blogging – 4 years this November and, besides reading, I can safely say it’s my longest hobby ever.
  • I went to Paris (France) with my sister and had a great time, as always.
  • This is also where I went to my first big book fair and met V. E. Schwab, Sarah Dessen and Marissa Meyer. My first author meeting!!! I also said thank you way too much??? (Full story here!!)

  • I went back to Lille (France) and ate gorgeously looking Swedish food.
  • I read A LOT of books and I’m lazy to count them all right now.
  • I also drank a whole lot of tea, as always. I’m made up of 99% tea, okay.
  • I went to Strasbourg (France) and I always love to. It’s such a beautiful city.
  • I went to Berlin for the first time and it was beautiful. Even if, no, I can’t speak German. I wish I could.

  • I tried to get back to writing my WIP and well…. let’s just say I’m a failure.
  • I went to Scotland for the first time and this is the place where stories are made of. I just loved it so, so very much.
  • I kind of had an ups-and-downs year, mental health wise. Maybe I’ll share more of that in my actual Shattering Stigmas posts, though, so…. wait for it. Or not. I don’t know.
  • I actually received one of my most anticipated books of ever from a massive publisher. (Here’s my full story).

  • I’ve been told that I did a good job at my current job. So, even if I’m not entirely happy at it, at least I’m okay doing it?
  • I might have ordered too many books. I also regret nothing.
  • I took the train way more times to actually give a full count. Also let me take this time to state that I really have a very, very, very profound hatred for the French public transportation.
  • People disappointed me. I also disappointed myself. But I’m a work in progress.
  • I’ve become more active on Twitter and I’ve been loving it. But also it makes me procrastinate more and well, oops.
  • I started watching Gilmore Girls and I’m just OBSESSED okay.

  • I sent letters, gifts, comments, tweets, to both people I admire and dear friends and I realize how much I love that sweet and positive and happy, sharing and caring part of me.
  • I grew closer to some blogging friends and I’m forever grateful to have them.
  • I worried too much about what people think. Still do.
  • I celebrated two entire years at my current job.
  • That’s also the day I fell down and broke my right foot (that was October 1st). If that’s a message from the universe, it was well-done. (Yes. As I’m writing this my foot is broken. Keep your fingers crossed for me and prayers, please).
  • I felt happy, sad, anxious, disappointed, excited, in love. Life’s a rollercoaster I guess.

I just feel like I’m supposed to
have done more in 25 years. Or maybe less? I don’t know, I’m always feeling like I should be proud or disappointed in myself on my birthday, but…. let’s face it, I’m just going to say that I’ve made it another full year and that’s something.

So I’m 25 now. I feel old, I feel young, I feel, I don’t know. There are still so many
things I want to do in the upcoming year, like…

  • I want – strike that, I NEED to go back to London. Hopefully soon.
  • I want to stop caring about what the hell people think. Please someone teach me.
  • I want to write and finish – well, as finished as it can be, obviously – that damn WIP I’ve been working on and off for over 3 damn years now.
  • I want to travel. As much as possible. I just feel so alive when I’m exploring a new place, map in hand and surrounded by the loves of my life.
  • I want to keep on being positive with others… and with myself. As much as I can, despite everything else and my worried mind.
  • I want to feel like I’m doing and being enough. That’s all, I guess?!

I hope you enjoyed reading this post – I can tell you, it feels good to always write things all down like that! I’d love to hear from you too though!

Do you like reading these kind of personal posts, or not? Feel free to let me know!

When is your birthday? Do you like Gilmore Girls?? (Please someone obsess with me about it?) What are some things you wish to accomplish, soonish? Let me know in comments!

I hope you’ll all have a brilliant day, xx

 

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149 thoughts on “25.

  1. A belated very happy birthday! As someone not far off 26 I hear you – this ageing shit is weird. For what it’s worth, I think you’re doing just fine. I’m sorry to hear that you’re not crazy about your day job, but you love your blog, and you have built this into such a massive success with pure hard work. You are my inspo-blogger – when another week goes by and I don’t feel like writing, or I don’t feel like blog hopping beyond my faves I genuinely am like “girl get your shit together and do like Marie!”

    I am so sorry to hear about your foot! That sounds absolutely awful. Are you managing okay? I hope you have people around to help you out! Do you know how long it’s going to take to heal?

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    1. Oh thank you so, so much Lydia, this means a lot and you’re way too sweet – you might have made me a little bit emotional, 😭😭 thank you so, so much, this means so much to me 😭 ❀

      I'm.. managing, I guess. I'm surrounded by my family so that's all good for sure, but for now I'm stuck at home with a cast for my right foot for another month (the accident happened on October 1st. So it's already been a good 15 days)…. so let's just say I'm managing, not really well, but I hope it's healing okay :/
      Thank you so much for asking and for your sweet words!! ❀ ❀ ❀

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  2. Hi Marie! Happy belated birthday! I really loved reading your thoughts on turning 25, because, well, that seems like a long way off for me, yet I could relate so so much, which surprised me. I guess no one really feels like they have their life fully put together, no matter what age they are. At least there’s some solidarity and comfort in that 😊

    I truly believe that our harshest critic is ourselves. If your goal is to feel like you’re doing and are enough, that might be hard… but from my perspective, you are truly my blogging inspiration. Your comments are amazing, how active your are in the blogging community is amazing, your reviews make my wallet cry, and your writing style & topics are just πŸ’―πŸ’―πŸ’―!!! I follow many blogs, but yours is one of the few where I’m genuinely excited to read every single one of your posts. I just wanted to you to know this whenever you feel like you “should be doing more…” because honestly, a lot of people (including myself) look up to you for inspiration & motivation. I guess this is my birthday present to you, haha πŸ˜‹

    Ooof I’m really sorry to hear about your broken foot… I’ve never broken a bone myself, but I’ve had friends who’ve had and the recovery process was rough. I hope you’re able to take care of yourself & that your recovery goes well! ❀️ Anyways, thank you so much for sharing this little tidbit about your life and thoughts, Marie! Hope your birthday went wonderfully! 😊

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    1. Thank you so, so, so, so much for your sweet words Zoie, this honestly makes me tear up, thank you 😭😭 this means the world to me – I’m just my own worst critic, that’s for sure and being a perfectionist does not help at all ahah, reading these kind of words honestly mean so, so, so very much to me, thank you 😭 ❀

      Thank you for the well wishes, that means a lot! It hasn't been too easy, but hopefully it recovers well, fingers crossed πŸ™‚ thank you!! ❀ ❀ ❀

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  3. Happy birthday Marie ! You and your wonderdul self deserves to feel happy all the time ( especially on your birthday haha ).

    I completly get you. Getting older is such a strange thing. Your just have this feeling of having done so much, and at the same time have to do so,so much more things. That’s soooo weird.

    I may always complain about the fact that my mental health is often a rollercoaster but at the end, I think that without this, life would feel kind of strange. If I felt good every time and had no problems, I wouldn”t grow stronger and learn,discover and so much more. ( I Don’t know if that makes sense ). But I hope that life isn’t too hard with you & that you aren’t too hard with youself. You such a wonderful person Marie. Truly. Reading your posts always makes me smile and feel so much better and I couldn’t be grateful enough for all of that. ❀

    Oh also…GILMORE GIRLS !!!!!! YES I'M SO OBSESSED !! ❀

    I hope you'll reach your goals and have a wonderful year while being 25 !

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    1. AWww thank you so, so, so, so much for your sweet words and comment, this means so much, you’re way too sweet ❀❀
      And you’re so right, I guess we wouldn’t be who we are without our struggles, too, and we are doing our very best ❀ And thank you, this really warms my heart and makes my day so much better, thank you!

      AHHH, you love Gilmore Girls as well, YAY! This makes me SO happy ❀
      Thank you so, so much!! ❀

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  4. Happy birthday Marie ❀ It seems like you've accomplished so much this past year! You should absolutely be proud of yourself!
    With each year that passes, I feel like time is flying by, and I get what you mean in that I always wonder if I should have done more or if I am trying to do too much! I think the key is to do what we love to do, then we have no regrets. Sometimes I am a bit morbid and I think, if I am on my deathbed, what would I regret not doing? :')
    Hope you had a wonderful birthday and birthday month ❀ So sad to hear that you broke your foot but take care and recover soon!

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    1. Awww thank you so much Sophie, this means a lot, you’re too sweet ❀❀
      Hahahaahah well… it might be a bit morbid, but it does the job, doesn’t it πŸ˜›
      Thank you so much for your well wishes, too, that means a lot ❀

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  5. First off, Happy Late Birthday! I’m sorry I didn’t get a chance to respond on your actual birthday (I’m still catching up on a lot of posts), but this post resonated with me a lot. I’m turning 26 next week and we’re definitely at that age where the stage everyone is at is wildly different, but the societal expectations are that you are prolly married, perhaps even with kids, you have started your career already, live in a house, yaddi yaddi yadda. So when you aren’t able to cross off everything from that list (or even *one* thing off that list), then suddenly you feel like a failure? Especially when it’s a really lonely time, because you’re still adjusting from no longer having a ton of friends around all the time like school provided the opportunity to have and getting adjusted to just working, while still trying to find ways to exist outside of it (at least, that’s how I feel, anyway).

    So, I just found myself nodding a lot in your post–and extremely jealous of all your travels! I’m stuck in the States, but every place you listed you’ve been, I want to GO. But, I hope you have the best year yet (and I wish you a speedy recovery with your foot). I look forward to reading more of your blog. You seem like a really lovely person and maybe you can add another (me) blogger friend to your mix, if you so desire! πŸ™‚

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    1. Oh no need to apologize AT ALL Nicole, thank you so much for the wishes and for such a sweet comment, that means a lot! ❀

      YES. That's exactly it – it's stupid, but I feel this pressure to have it all together while I'm still feeling like I'm getting adjusted to actually being an adult and no longer having friends around at all, either. It's all so complicated ahah, university years seemed easier πŸ™‚

      Oh thank you, you're too sweet! ❀ I'd dream of touring the states someday, there is so much to see πŸ˜€
      Thank you so, very very much, you're too sweet ❀ I'd appreciate that so very much, I hope we'll be able to chat more πŸ˜€

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      1. Of course, it was my pleasure! ❀

        EXACTLY. I dunno why we must have it together now, when we're still trying to figure out exactly what "having it together" means. And honestly, I think we'll prolly reach that point, only for the world to flip it on it's head once more and suddenly feel in limbo again as we learn more about adulting. But we'll figure it out, I bet, one step at a time! πŸ™‚

        Gosh, really? Maybe it's just the you-don't-appreciate-where-you-live factor, but I am so ready to get out of the States and explore *history*. But I know there is a lot of cool stuff to see here I take for granted! I hope so, too! you seem like a really neat person and I could always use more neat people in my life. ❀ πŸ˜€

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      2. Agree, we certainly will, one step at a time haha πŸ™‚
        I get that ahah, it seems like we all want to be elsewhere. I personally love Europe and my country so, very very much, but I am also impatient to explore other continents more. There’s so much to see πŸ˜€
        Aww thank you, you’re too sweet! ❀

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      3. Oh, I know that’s true. Even within the States, I want to live where my Mom grew up, instead of where I did, even though she left because she needed to escape for a bit! But living abroad would be a dream! Or, just having enough money to travel everywhere and see everything would be lovely, too. πŸ˜‰

        ❀ ❀

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